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sleepy Hi!
So, I haven't updated this in a looooooong time, and I thought it might be time to change that.
I've been trying to find a way to make me yearn more to write in here, because honestly I’d rather put it on a piece of paper than in a computer. It just feels better to write what I feel in a paper, but when it’s time to put it in my laptop… So I guess I’ll just have to make myself wait until I get home to write… That sucks… Wow, my writing skills are still repulsive.
Anyway, it’s been a long day. More like two obscenely long weeks, actually. I have this friend, Max, who, unfortunately, has a crush on me. He’s amazing. He’s read basically the same things I have, we see the same shows, love the same things AND he has read fanfiction. A guy, in my country, who has read fanfiction? That’s like cows flying. Only he read Harry/Draco (Harry Potter), so add some penguins and some pigs to those cows. He’s totally amazing and I adore him to bits, only as just a friend. Now, I plan on being totally honest about myself in here, so I’ll admit, I’m the type of girl who likes the guys that like her. It’s much easier to flirt with someone you know likes you than the possibility of rejection with someone who never gave you any hint, right? Only I like Max so much I couldn’t hurt him, so I tried to find out if I liked him the same way. I honestly prayed for it, but in the end I had to tell him I couldn’t date him. But everything was ok, until last week…
Suddenly, everything he did pissed me off. But seriously pissed me off, like homophobes or female!Harry fics! So I started avoiding him, obviously, because the poor guy would walk into a room and I’d get all tense and cold. It was unfair, because I’m obviously not pissed at him. I’m either pissed at myself or trying to hate him so I’ll stop trying to like him as more than a friend.
Ah common sense... Only it’s been nearly a whole week and we haven’t spoken and now I have no idea what to do. I don’t wanna go talk to him just to have everything back to the crappy, crappy way it was. Gaaaaaaaaaah, now I’m just... Babbling. Ignore me, please.
It’s Tuesday, and I just got some great news. I live in Portugal, where Universities have great traditions, amongst which is the honour of wearing a ‘traje’, an ensemble of clothes global in each University that represents it, and only the students that have participated in its traditions can use them. I am one of them, and I’m gonna buy mine this Saturday, with my friends.
The 1st of November is the most important day of College life, for it symbolises the end of all the hazing and the first day the Second years can wear the ‘traje’. Here’s a picture of how mine will kinda look like:
My net server sucks. I wish I was home, with a fast connection... *cries a little, but just a little cuz we live in a crisis and every drop is important*
Anyway, I’m trying to make this work, so let’s se... *shrugs*
dorky
busy
cheerful
bouncy
bitchy
crappy